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Journal Entry: Fri Jul 11, 2008, 7:03 AM
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I don't want to talk about what I'm going to write. Darrah, I know you're going to want to discuss it and shit, about how my mom's a crazy phsyco bitch and that I need to stand up to her and not listen to her. I don't. Want. To. Discuss. It. I just want to vent, and then contemplate quietly in a corner. ALONE. With that, I copy and paste my frustrations for your... er... sadistic enjoyment?






I hate my mother. I really really am starting to develop this awful bitterness towards her, and its completely ruining our relationship. She asked me to come to the office, and I said yes. I could have refused and left her high and dry with no help. But you knonw what? I'm not a mean person. I came in with her to help her! And I didn't even say anything all morning! She walks in the room to get a cup of coffee, and says "You know what your problem is?" And the next thing I know, complete bitch session! Why is it, that she asks me for help, I comply, and then she just proceeds to tear me apart? How is that ethical in any way? The next time she asks, I'm saying NO. I don't care how pissy she gets about it, me coming to the office results in nothing but her getting pissed at me and in turn, ruining her whole day.

I'm SO sick of hearing her. I'm SO SICK of her being so... god, I don't even have the words! She keeps trying to shove these self help books down my throat, and gets completely PISSED when I don't want to read them!!! She just labels it as me being hardheaded and refusing to listen to anyone, which I won't deny is a small part of it. But whenever I try to explain that that's not the case, she won't listen. She refuses to listen to a word that comes out of my mouth, and then misinterprets all my actions! So how can I make her understand anything!!! I don't want to read these books because
1.) They're a really dry read anyway.
2.) The very idea is STUPID! These authors write up generic advice, meant to work for people IN THE MILLIONS! They don't know me, they don't know who I am, and they don't know what will work for me! It's like seeing ghosts. You only see results from these books if you actually beleive they will work. And I don't.
and 3.) These books she keeps shoving at me are all telling me shit I know anyway. They can all be summed up on three words. JUST DO IT.

And what's SO FRUSTRATING, is that she just keeps throwing the bad shit in my face, like a monkey throwing poo, without even paying ANY HEED AT ALL to what good I've done! When they made me drop out of school for fucking up the semester (to which I've already admitted to being a stupid fuck, but I've learned from that mistake! They just won't give me a change to prove it by putting me back in!) that was bad. And that was my fault. BUT WHO THEN WENT OUT OF THEIR WAY TO FIND ANOTHER SCHOOL, APPLY, PAY ALL THE FEES, GET ALL THE INFORMATION AND GET ACCEPTED?! ME THAT'S FUCKING WHO! I'M the one who's dealt with all the shit to get myself back in school! I'M the one who did all that work, despite my parents teeling me I was a fucking idiot and that I can't do it! And you know what, they're wrong. Because as soon as I get into school again, they'll see. They have NO IDEA how bad I want this!

God... I have to stop writing. I have so much more to say, but I have to stop. I can't get it out. There's too much. I'm freaking out. I'm tired and lonely and sad and angry and miserable. I need to be back around the people I love. I need to get away from the criticism. I don't care if they approve of my lifestyle, I just need to be happy again.

Truth be told, I wouldn't mind if they all disowned me. I'd be sad sometimes, yeah, but on the whole I'd be happier. Because it seems like when they love me, they hate me.

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  • Current Age: 18
  • Current Residence: Florida
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  • Favourite movie: The one I havent watched
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  • Favourite genre of music: Showtunes
  • Favourite artist: too tough to decide
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*Nambs:iconNambs: 5 days 11 hours ago
Lol, no bigs! And thank you for thaking me!

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~Archer-1:iconArcher-1: 5 days 11 hours ago
Thanks for the fav! sorry it took me so long to respond! ^^;

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*Nambs:iconNambs: Jul 5, 2008, 11:56:34 AM
But of course! Any time. :3

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*Nambs:iconNambs: Jun 24, 2008, 1:53:40 PM Mood: Joy
Right bakatcha!!! ^w^
~LeMegz:iconLeMegz: Jun 24, 2008, 10:08:37 AM
waa, thanks for the fave! :D

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*Nambs:iconNambs: Jun 11, 2008, 3:25:17 PM
NO! I wants my LAPTOP!!
~Twigzors:iconTwigzors: Jun 11, 2008, 1:42:18 PM
Still crazy, and STOP DOING THAT! >=V

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*Nambs:iconNambs: Jun 11, 2008, 7:00:06 AM
yes she is. But I get my laptop at the office, sooooo.....
~Twigzors:iconTwigzors: Jun 10, 2008, 4:14:46 PM
Your mom's a psycho bitch :C

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~GreenofSpades:iconGreenofSpades: Jun 6, 2008, 8:51:12 PM
you're welcome! :D

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~GreenofSpades:iconGreenofSpades: Jun 6, 2008, 7:20:32 PM
ooh I likes your style 8D

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"My dear, every moment was made for my words."
*Nambs:iconNambs: Jun 4, 2008, 5:04:11 PM
Thanks! Yours too! :D
~MystiqueDragon:iconMystiqueDragon: May 25, 2008, 2:28:01 PM
:D

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*Nambs:iconNambs: May 25, 2008, 3:45:05 AM
lol, your welcome! :3 And you take care as well! ^.^
*Tadadada:iconTadadada: May 24, 2008, 5:44:18 AM
xD much welcome

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~MystiqueDragon:iconMystiqueDragon: May 23, 2008, 4:27:44 PM
Hello! :wave:

I just wanted to stop in and thank you for the :+fav: on Elemental Elegance! :D

Take Care!

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*Nambs:iconNambs: May 22, 2008, 12:36:28 PM
lol, your welcome! :3
=ScreamingGerbil:iconScreamingGerbil: May 22, 2008, 12:11:56 PM
Thanks for the fave ;D

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*Nambs:iconNambs: May 22, 2008, 10:27:08 AM
lol, of course! I like your exaggerated style. It makes me laff. :3
*Nambs:iconNambs: May 22, 2008, 10:26:46 AM
Thanks a lot! :3 I appreciate it when people appreciate my work, lol.
=alexds1:iconalexds1: May 22, 2008, 9:11:54 AM
Thanks for the watch! I super appreciate it!
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